ljuset wrote:
It is heart-warming to revisit this thread, after a long time of absence - thank you Ken (Ballard) for keeping in touch, and be able to indulge in all the wonderful pictures being posted.
Sadly, I cannot contribute anything as I have not picked up my camera for quite some time now due to heavy workload and my father being recently diagnosed with cancer in its final stage.
All the best and - I will try to visit more often again!
Eike
Life happens as well all know, I send you my best wishes for your father and hope things lighten up soon for you at work.
I remember having literally lost 5 years of life once where I was working 80-100 hour plus weeks. I called it the coma because I literally don't know what happened in those 5 years, news, events, tv, it's all a blank. I would eat and sleep with a phone in my ear and I couldn't even feel my pager anymore when it buzzed. And in the same token, when I was past it all, I had phantom pages for probably a good two years I would feel, regardless of not even having a pager on. And in the end of that period, I lost my father as well to cancer.. very stoic time for me as one of my last visits before the end was to go out shooting with him. He had a view camera and I had a Fuji and a Canon at the time. We went to Mono Lake and it was an adventure.
I share this only out of compassion as at one point I prided myself on how tuff I was to be able to make it through all that and the other challenges in life at the time. I remember this moment with ironic crystal clear recollection of driving to work one morning and it was super dewey and everything looked like crystal bright drops, so very surreal as the early golden light shown upon the trees and grass. I had one of those glowing I survived dual moments of wanting to take a picture and smiling as I felt so alive. And then, a few seconds later, it hit me! I was not proud (pride commeth before the fall and I felt stupid for having allowed myself to have worked my life away and I swore I would never do that again. I know it's not always possible to slow down, modern life seems to have a way of keeping us captive and it takes tremendous will to see past the grand scheme of it all. Lol, I refer to it as awareness and reprogramming ones self to see the truth about life.
All this to say:
We seem to be a breathern of a sort, coming and going but never really leaving for good. We always seem to find our way back to this glass portal where we feel welcome and home. God speed my friend!
ljuset wrote:
It is heart-warming to revisit this thread, after a long time of absence - thank you Ken (Ballard) for keeping in touch, and be able to indulge in all the wonderful pictures being posted.
Sadly, I cannot contribute anything as I have not picked up my camera for quite some time now due to heavy workload and my father being recently diagnosed with cancer in its final stage.
All the best and - I will try to visit more often again!
Eike
Life happens as well all know, I send you my best wishes for your father and hope things lighten up soon for you at work.
I remember having literally lost 5 years of life once where I was working 80-100 hour plus weeks. I called it the coma because I literally don't know what happened in those 5 years, news, events, tv, it's all a blank. I would eat and sleep with a phone in my ear and I couldn't even feel my pager anymore when it buzzed. And in the same token, when I was past it all, I had phantom pages for probably a good two years I would feel, regardless of not even having a pager on.
I share this only out of compassion as at one point I prided myself on how tuff I was to be able to make it through all that and the other challenges in life at the time. I remember this moment with ironic crystal clear recollection of driving to work one morning and it was super dewey and everything looked like crystal bright drops, so very surreal as the early golden light shown upon the trees and grass. I had one of those glowing I survived dual moments of wanting to take a picture and smiling as I felt so alive. And then, a few seconds later, it hit me! I was not proud (pride commeth before the fall and I felt stupid for having allowed myself to have worked my life away and I swore I would never do that again. I know it's not always possible to slow down, modern life seems to have a way of keeping us captive and it takes tremendous will to see past the grand scheme of it all. Lol, I refer to it as awareness and reprogramming ones self to see the truth about life.
All this to say:
We seem to be a breathern of a sort, coming and going but never really leaving for good. We always seem to find our way back to this glass portal where we feel welcome and home. God speed my friend!
and I felt stupid for having allowed myself to have worked my life away and I swore I would never do that again. I know it's not always possible to slow down, modern life seems to have a way of keeping us captive and it takes tremendous will to see past the grand scheme of it all. Lol, I refer to it as awareness and reprogramming ones self to see the truth about life.