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| p.1 #1 · Depression, Gear, and Recovery |
It has been a very long time sense I posted here, on FM. A lot has happened in the last year, and I have the urge to share.
About 11 months ago, I went through a change. This was not a change for the better. I suddenly lost motivation, even to do my homework. I no longer wanted to go out and do things, and my eating habits changed in extremes, going days barely eating, and other days I would just pig out, and eat whatever I could find. I even lost interest in playing video games. I was later diagnosed with clinical depression. And this hit me hard.
I chose recovery without medication through dieting, and forming healthier habits. This took a long time. My depression got worse. I started noticing that my sleeping habits were changing. I developed severe insomnia, and was getting between 1- to 2 hours of sleep a night, sometimes three days with only a couple hours of sleep. This made things worth.
My depression was running my life. I wanted to give up on so many things, photography included. I had lost all of my passion for what was once my favorite hobby, and potential career. I started to wonder if a change would rekindle my passion. Perhaps new gear, or maybe even a new format. I considered selling all of my Nikon gear and switching to the Nex system. My kit is modest, but covers everything I need. I was close to listing everything, but something didn't feel right.
Then I started thinking something; It doesn't cost me anything to keep it.
I am so grateful that I didn't sell my gear. I am SO glad.
I have been depression free for the past 2 months. I have regained my fiery passion for photography. I am out every day taking pictures. I have made a new years resolution to finish a 365 picture a day project. I am HAPPY! I even shelled out the cash, money I saved up without selling gear, to buy a D600, from the Buy Sell board here, of course.
I know that it has only been 2 months, and relapses happen often. But I think that if I stay adamant with my passions, and keep eating healthier while being more active, I will be just fine.
I am excited to get back into the FM community.